Accidentally On Purpose: God’s Plan For My Life
I know this is going to sound bad, but don’t judge me. I can write this post because my daughters cannot read yet.
Have you ever looked into your child’s eyes and thought, “You were an accident”? You don’t say it, of course; you never say it. Yet sometimes I look into my daughters’ eyes and think, “Your mom and I never intended to have you!”
But here’s the truth: there are no accidents because God doesn’t make mistakes. My daughters, Abigail and Grace, have always been in God’s plan. He knew the happiness they would bring me and the motivation I would need to be a better husband, father, and son. God prepared me to handle my family’s expenses, to grow in patience, and to be aware of the eyes constantly watching me. My daughters always make me feel loved, and I thank God for them every single day.
All Part of God’s Plan
I often think about the time I sat in Auntie Mag’s kitchen when this goofy girl came in and greeted everyone but me. I realize now that I wasn’t just attracted to her, but to my future, calling me from her eyes. I married that goofy girl, and today my daughters call her Mom.
Sometimes I look at my wife, Salina, while she’s sleeping next to me and I think, “You were an accident! How did you get from that kitchen to here?” Simple: Salina Holder was always part of God’s plan.
I remember talking to John in college. “I’ll never get married!” I said. I didn’t want kids, and I told him I wanted to stay single forever. Today I imagine God laughing when I said that. “You have no idea what I have in store for you,” He must have thought. It’s like God says in 1 Corinthians 2:9:
However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived”— the things God has prepared for those who love him— (1 Corinthians 2:9, New International Version)
Sure enough, nothing I had seen or could imagine came close to being a husband to the most beautiful woman in the world.
When I look at my wife and daughters, I realize they were not part of my plans for myself. I’m grateful that God’s plan for me was so much better.
I don’t like to give too much advice, so I’ll leave you with this: when writing your life plans, use a pencil. You never know what bigger plans God has for you.
Have you discovered what God’s plan for you yet? Did it differ from your plans for yourself? What if your plans don’t go the way you expect? Can you still trust God?